It has been 9 months of triumph, blissfulness, uncomfortable moments, tiresome days, suicidal thoughts, frustration, joy and blessings.
You are soon going to be in my hands. We have been doing all the tasks together since the day you have been inside me and we will keep on doing tasks together all our life. Before you step into this world, I want to tell you something about this world.
Baby girl, never feel sorry for being a girl. Love yourself because you are a girl and you have places to go, and things to do which boys can not. Never be ashamed of your body, for how you feel, for what you do and what you want to do. Do as you wish, as you want to, the way it will make you happy. Have no regrets. Trust yourself. Believe in yourself. Don’t ever rely on people, on friends or on men to make you feel worthy, to make you feel loved. You are supposed to be the only one to make you feel that way. Let that negative energy out, let go of those people who have been a negative impact on your life. Don’t let things go with the flow like a dead fish.
And promise one thing, just one thing. If you will ever feel worthless, low or have any suicidal thoughts, you will come to me. I will hold your hand and take you to the room and make you sit. I will make you lean on my shoulder and cry your heart out. Tell me all your struggles and all your pains. Tell me of those who have hurt you in the worst ways. Tell me of the negative thoughts you have in your mind. Those are the time when I will remind you to love yourself, to put yourself at first.
Baby girl, listen to me.
If it hurts you, end it before it ends you. Know that there will be days when you will cry and there will be more sleepless nights. There will be days where you will feel nothing can stop you, but there will be days that will hit you hard in the face. There will be days where you will sleep on a wet pillow. In all these days, remember this one thing. Remember this that there will be a day when you will wake up and nothing will matter to you, except yourself. Wait for that day and hold on a little more. You will find yourself in those days, so never quit. Learn to accept those days since the day you will step into this world.
Baby, this journey is not going to be easy, but it will take you where you are supposed to be. And most importantly, you will learn to love yourself.
I am telling you this because nobody told me when I was of your age. I want you to be not like me, relying over people, waiting for guys to make me feel worthy and waiting for someone to put my broken pieces together.
From your mommy.
